what i'm going through now...

whatever i'm going through now...
i'm not sure you'd want to know after i start the first sentence..
i feel like calling out alot of cusses...
but i know it might not be worth it...
the reason why i didn''t bother trying is cuz i have a few steadfast FRIENDS that i can depend on when it comes to all that trouble...
so many things have happened since the last i've updated this miserable blog...
haha
each order from M...
the closer she drives me to you (though she doesn't realize all this)
i think i'll stop now...
anywayz..

blog updated

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>.<

tata

idiots

a part of my problems....

One thing i can't bear anymore is...
BEING A FREAKING SUB!!

incomplete ya... this was Friday,21 Aug 2009

This is incomplete...but it's like....almost 1am...
and i need to get upstairs just in case my parents wake up...
than i'm dead...
i'll post the blackboard incidents soon...
wakakaka to Rachel Yip haha

Se Yieng, Se Yieng...
what are you staring at??
xD

This is Vera....
but...
we didn't manage to get her pic...
nice effects though.
xD

so serious wei...
better watch out! haha

Let the Pics say it all...

On the 18th Aug 2009...

Yeah i know this particular pic is a little............
weird.....
we didn't intend to get the pic this way....
Gosh i'm freakin bad...
sorry kor..
xD
but i was just itching to put it up..

On The 16TH of August 2009

Hey!!!!!!!!! i'm BACK~~~~ haha
This was 16th Aug 2009,
we celebrated See Wen Min and Siew Li Xin's birthday which is actually on 28 and 30th respectfully..
We went to Sunway Pyramid :

these are the crazy people that i went with =]

See Wen Min

Siew Li Xin



Rachel Yip

Yeah...they "argue" lot...but they're good friends... (trust me lol)




lol than...there is my dear-always there for me- bf xD
here's Wen Min drinking.....
OMGOSH it's...
VODKA!
xD

Look at her face!!
she and Rach claims i made her this way cause i'm a jinx..
yeah a jinx..
long story..
haha

Than the "hired" (as i cruel-y put it(but they were good, nice and friendly haha )) came..
time for the "bullying"

First, they were asked to stand on the chairs...

Than to give a SPEECH by using a ..... pepper mill?.... (i have no idea what it's called...xP)

Li Xin gave her speech....she said that she was so touched..xD

Than Wen Min... she said thank u and told me she was sorry...
for those of you who knew what happened...
lets keep it to ourselves..

Thus the cake that my dear Kok Meng bought.. =]

The two lovely friends cutting cake together..

After that we all went home...
first Wen Min,
than Li Xin,
Than Rachel,
Than me,
Than Kok meng...
=]
haha
The End...
xD

Let's go jump.

hurt....

confused...

i don't know what to do...

but i need to correct this...

fast..

before i loose another friend...

or rather....

all my friends...

how could one thing that i do cause so much??

i hate myself...
seriously...

Short post... (Day Two!)

Day two!!
he's so sweet!!!
xP
*sigh*
i still remember the day ^^

Wishes~

Happy Belated Birthday
To
Rachel Yip
&
Yee Wern
!

sadly i've got to off the comp now..
so no new updates yet..

~Balance~ (Lord help me please)

imagine the circus actor..
balancing on the tight rope..
that's how i feel now...
except my balancer is heavy at one end only...
and i'm struggling to maintain my balance..
next week is the school exam and on friday i won't be able to take the last exam because i have piano exam (grade 8 yes the so-called final grade) on that day..
i'm supposed to be practicing like 4 hours a day...
haven't been discipline enough to do so even thought there is like less than one week left..
despite having to concertrate on my piano..
i also have to get As for my parents to be happy...
if i don't...(which i most probably wouldn't get)
i'd probably be feeling really bad bout myself...
i feel guilty of not being able to balance it all..

not only that...i have problems with my own personal life
which...i won't just blurt it all out here
things are changing..
i feel like everyone that was once close to me are going away
and i don't think they're coming back..
i don't know how to explain all of this even if you asked me face to face..

i'm sorry...

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Happy Birthday!!Sweet 16

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(sorry can't type more...no time haha)

My blog = Dead ^^

Kelly Clarkson (addicted)

"Walk Away" by Kelly Clarkson

You've got your mother and your brother
Every other undercover
Tellin' you what to say (say)
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is
That it's cupid, baby
Lovin' you has made me this way
So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger
Oh yeah
You need to know this situation's getting old
And now the more you talk
The less I can take, oh

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why are you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed (showed)?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone (alone)
So, before you start defendin'
Baby, stop all your pretendin'
I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today
Hey

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why are you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I wanna love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why are you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away

If you don't have the answer
Walk away
Just walk (walk) away
(Just walk away)
Then just leave
Yeah yeah
Walk away
Walk away
Walk away

"Behind These Hazel Eyes" by Kelly Clarkson

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Truthfully....

I'm going to stop myself there and say...
"You're not worth it. I'm better off without you. "
I have other people to back me up if you won't..
There are many other friends to help me when you won't..

Unbreakable

Unbrekable-Fireflight

Where are the people that accused me?
The ones who beat me down and bruised me?
They hide just out of sight.
Can't face me in the light.
They'll return but I'll be stronger.
God, I want to dream again.
Take me where I've never been.
I wanna go there,
This time I'm not scared.
Now I am unbreakable.
I'ts unmistakable.
No one can touch me.
Nothing can stop me.
Sometimes it's hard to just keep going.
But faith is moving without knowing.
Cannot touch but I can see,
To reach my destiny,
I'll have to take control, but I know better.
God, I want to dream again,
Take me where I've never been.
I wanna go there,
This time I'm not scared.
Now I am unbreakable.
It's unmistakable.
No one can touch me.
Nothing can stop me.
Forget the fear
It's just a krutch
That tries to hold you back
And turn your dreams to dust.
All you need to do is trust.
Trust!
God, I want to dream again.
Take me where I've never been,
I wanna go there
This time I'm not scared.
Now I am unbreakable.
It's unmistakable.
No one can touch me
Nothing can stop me.

Don't ask me why...I just feel this way...

Believe has a 'lie' in it.

believe has a lie in it.
i can't believe you believed me...
when i say i'm okay....
sometimes i'm really just hurting inside...
wanting you to comfort me....

what you said really hurt...

i miss you...
i want you...
but i think you want another person...

i'm okay...
i'll be okay...

oh btw,i know what you did.lol

i'm over it...
just as long as you promise to make up for it..
=]

Ouch

that hurt...
i was looking forward to spending at least one day with you beside me...
now i know that's not going to happen....

Good and Bad....(uncompleted)

today :

P.A Day!
our performance.....was okay....
till the last part where i got so tired that i nearly fell for the last turn...
managed to cover up...
haha..

how do i label today??
both good and bad i guess...

Good...

went down to PJ at 9.30am..
after practice...11.30am...
walked down to domino's with K,G and C...
saw BB boys pass by...
guess who?
lol
i'm not obsessed...
by pass him twice and i could feel my cheeks go bright red..
i could have sworn that he sensed it...
*darn it*
than...
I was sitting down with some friends...
than something happened and i got up quite fast and the timing was so great...
=.=
i knocked HZ's sis, JQ and she ended up sitting on her friend.....
i laughed non-stop....
=.=

Bad...
I got pissed off at C...
i forgotten something and she didn't give me a break...
at all...
crap her
only she can forget bout things and no1 gives her a crap bout it??
than....
i nearly fell on G during the last turn during our performance...
i hope no1 noticed....
>.<

ouch..that hurt....

I'll hate you for that...

but you know i can't for long..

you're forever in my hate list..

you're on my friends list too....

how could you??

i should have gotten used to this...

you're an idiot...

you're one of my idiots from my gang...

I'm confused right now...
all I want is a care-free life..
why don't you leave me alone when you become one of them??
big-headed jerk..

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I'm sorry...